Skylar Sustin

In 2020, during COVID, I had to move back home from college. During this time, I went straight into old patterns of people-pleasing, critical self-thoughts, perfectionism to feel some control, and faking positivity to ignore the pain of uncertainty, loss, and anger. To distract me from my emotional discomfort and to try to feel some sense of control I started working out twice a day and trying to eat really healthily. All of this was the result of being too afraid to acknowledge the emotional storm brewing within.

As a result of these unhealthy habits of coping and with not many places to hide from myself, I was struck in the face with the awareness that when it came to myself I had no idea how to truly feel and understand my emotions. This came as a shock because emotions were always a prominent conversation growing up.

I had held on to hope that my external circumstances would change to make me feel better but then I heard the news that I was officially not going back to school for the next year. I had to come to terms with the fact that I couldn’t escape COVID and most importantly, the uncomfortable emotions that were within me. I had the choice to remain a victim or heal my internal world and go within.

Thus began my healing journey where I started working with an Emotion Code Practitioner.

Then in March of 2021, everything I thought I knew really got pulled out from under me when my parents went through a long and hard separation and divorce. My initial response (which lasted a long time) was to fight it, fix it, and, make everyone feel better. I was getting dragged along, putting so much of my self-worth into the outcome of my family that, once again, I ignored my own emotions. This is where I began to heal my mindset, my relationship with my external environment, & people-pleasing tendencies.

During this time, I was deep in my healing and had watched the Tony Robbins documentary, “I’m Not Your Guru”. And for the first time, I felt connected to something bigger than the pain I was feeling within. The power of helping other people understand and shift their lives by changing their perspectives, healing their emotions & trauma, and learning to reconnect with their true selves sparked an emotion I had never truly felt before. PURPOSE. And this is where my healing expanded into the healing of others.